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| 03:32am 11/09/2004 |
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mood:  PISSED THE FUCK OFF
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FUCK THIS IM TIRED OF THE WHOLE SITUATION. YOU CAN GO AN DHAVE FUN AND BE A STUPID DRUCKEN SLUT ONCE AGAIN I DONT CARE IVE GOTTEN OVER PPL BEFORE AND I CAN DO IT AGAIN. I SEE THAT I DONT MATTER TO YOU. THANKS ALOT FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE SHIT!!!!!!!! |
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| 08:57am 02/08/2004 |
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PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination .
You dont want a relationship without passion,
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
moment you meet him/her is one of the most
important. There has to be something between
you , you cannot explain. From the first moment
on everything must fix. But when this passion
disappears you disappear to. For you it is
better to leave than to see your love
restrained.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.
~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
brought to you by Quizilla |
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| 08:44am 02/08/2004 |
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Hello everyone. It may sound nerdish but i am so happy school is
tomorrow. Im so excited to see ppl. Im wearing a skirt its gonna be weird but holy crap im so anxious. I cant wait to see my old friends. Plus i get to hang out with completely different ppl this year. I wont make as many mistakes as last year i hope. Im gonna actually focus important things this year. Plus say NNNNOOOOOOO to drugs lol. Well im gonna go for now. Bye |
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| 01:58pm 01/08/2004 |
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mood:  relieved
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Ok so last night i called Shaun back because he had been trying to get through for a while. So we were talking and hes like do you want to go back out. I was like I dont know i dont think i want to be in a relationship rigth now so i ant say yes, then i said i dont want to go out with you and find that its not what i want and hurt you even more. Im like you dont hate me do you. Hes like NO. But i dont think hes to happy. SO i feel bad now but in the long run it would have been so much worse if i had said yes. Well im gonna go. I just had to say this. Bye. |
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| 05:56pm 31/07/2004 |
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mood:  exhausted
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Hello everybody. Today i went and got a bunch of clothes for school. We went to Ross, Marsalls, Jcpennys, Pacsun and Forever 21. I could only find two pairs of pants that fit so i got them both. Then i gto like 5 or 6 shirts. I also got a skirt from forever 21 and i actually look ok in it. I love my new clothes and shoes. I got black and white Vans from Pacsun. There so comfy. I cant wait to get more clothes though. Also i cant wait fo raunt barbie to get here yay. well im gonna go take a nap. bye everyone. |
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| 02:53pm 30/07/2004 |
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mood: hopeful
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Well i cleaned the house today williams and i cleaned my house. I mowed the front and back yard it sucked but oh well. I hope that im allowed to go to nats tonight. If not i guess i'll just bo around the house being all sad but oh well. I dont mind one bit. lol. well ill see yall later. |
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| 12:04am 30/07/2004 |
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mood:  bouncy music: nothing :(
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Tonight Zach, Josh and some annoying kid came over to my house at like 10. It was fun while it lasted which was not that long. :( I feel stupid because i still like Zach and i know he doesnt like me one bit. So i guess i should just give up it would be best. Well of course he went threw all my stuff, well tryed to. I hope that john or whatever nevr comes around me again. I know its mean but there are just some ppl you dont like and hes one. lol. Maybe im being to harsh but oh well. I hope amy lets me go to Williams house tomorrow. That would be pimp. Well im gonna go bye. |
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| 08:53pm 28/07/2004 |
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mood:  bitchy music: Cute when you scream- Senses Fail
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I wish for once things would work out in my favor. But why should this time be any different. What is so hard about fucking picking up a phone and calling soemone. Even if he doesnt want to be with me the least he could do is let me know. Mean while im driving myself crazy trying to figure out whats so wrong with me. That makes people not want to be with me. Even as i better myself as a person no one seems to notice or even care. Im sick and tired of all this stupid SHIT!!!!!! |
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| 08:28pm 27/07/2004 |
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mood: happy
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Hey everybody. So me and nat went to the mall today. She saw JOSH yay. I was so happy for her. Then we went and saw brian at his work. jgfbvcdfgnhqazskhxvz. And that what my 11month old cousin has to say about that. Shes the cutest little girl in the whole world. Well when we got home we decided to go to cvs for candy and when we walked out i saw shaun...so we yelled hey shaun. Then we walked back to the cemetary. Then we wanted a soda so we went back and we didnt have enough. So then we went to my house and got some more money. By then it was pouring. So we played. We walked all around cvs and the other buildings. Then we decided to go home but i saw shaun on the towards us. So i was like oh i want to talk to him so natalie made m.thanx you. Alex was there to. Oh yea Ohyea today when we were on the way home from the mall we went by natalies brothers football feild. Well of course we yelled and embarassed him. Ok back to shaun. I was so happy lol.Well im gonna go i want shaun to call me. I miss him so much. lol. |
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| 12:34pm 27/07/2004 |
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"Cute When You Scream"
(Play with, my heart)
I'll teach you what its like
(To be, so used)
That you'll have to clean
that dirt stuck in your plastic fingernails
and just the sent of you is enough
to make me sick
and all i know is revenge is sweet when...
you know that you are worthless,
and i am better than the games that you play princess.
(I play) and always win.
(I'll take, my time)
To slowly plot your end.
(But now, I will)
Speak bullets with my pen.
And all I know is you are cute when you scream.
You know, that you are worthless.
And I, am better than the games that you play princess.
(I play, and always Win)
I'll take you to the top
of this building and just push you off.
Run down the stairs so I can see,
your face as you hit the street.
(The street, the street, the street.)
You know, that you are worthless.
And I, am better than the games that you play princess.
(I play, and always Win)
(This time, I win. So here's your kiss goodbye.) |
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| 12:07pm 27/07/2004 |
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mood: sleepy
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Ello everyone. Ok natalie i just want to let you know im not mad
because of what i found. Im not mad at you in any way shape of form. I LLLLOOOOVVVVVEEEEE you. Just thought i would let you know that. Ok today me and natalie renee are probably going to the mall YAY. It will be great fun. I want to get my shoes so bad. Last night natalie was talking ot zach. And im happy fro her because josh likes her. I hope he really does call her. I have to clean the house a little today it sucks. Im so lazy and now i have to work. Oh well. Im gonna go bye. |
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| 06:03pm 26/07/2004 |
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I never should have taken her side, I should have taken Alex's side. He has never repeated anything I said or told him I did, even if he was mad at me. Liz, everytime it's her ass on the line, she throws the blame, I get it, and I end up getting grounded for my whole fucking life. Thanks a lot. I think that it would be accurate to say that I have no best friend anymore.
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I feel like crap because i stumbled on this in Natalies old journal. I cant believe that she said those things. I feel so empty. I feel as though our friendship since then is nothing but a big lie. Even though it may not be true its how i feel. I cant believe she thinks that i tryed to get her in trouble. Im sorry that i decided to be honest with my aunt and uncle and told them everything that i had been doing wrong. I had to get it off my chest. I feel so betrayed. And besides no one even got in trouble. I dont know right now. Ok well i just had to write this because i dont want to think about it anymore. It hurts to bad. |
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| 05:37pm 26/07/2004 |
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mood: drained
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Do you remember the time when you and I were fine
Hiding under the apple tree there was no one but you and me
We would hide from passing cars and we would have the summer stars
And we were better then then we'd ever been before
You came back to me after walking out my door
You would call me on the phone before you even got home
Without me you said you were all alone
The cold wind that blows all the things I used to know
How could it fade so fast never thought you'd be part of my past
Would I trade it all again to get you out of my head?
Cause we were better then then we'd ever been before
You came back to me after walking out my door
You would call me on the phone before you even got home
Without me you said you were all alone
Alone
Without me by your side
You said you were all alone
Give me one more chance
To prove myself to you
All the little things that I long to do
-When you went away-
Would you trade the course
-You said that you'd be-
So that I could hold you
-Coming up my front porch-
Would it all go away
-Just to see me-
And my heart is breaking
Would you hear me baby
As the tears are longing
For what it used to be
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Im sad and this song makes me feel good. So of cousrse i play it over and over. I dont know why but ive been sad lately. I feel so incomplete. I have a very bad headache. I want to go get clothes for school. But i guess i have to wait till saturday. Im not feeling well but i want to go somewhere and do something. Today sam came over and we washed her car. Then we went for a ride. I wanted to go to the mall. I want those shoes so bad. But oh well. My eyes burn. And im hungry. I wish i didnt have to be alone tonight. But i have no one to be with. i need to get out. Im gonna go bye. |
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| 10:38am 24/07/2004 |
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mood: complacent music: nothing
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Today me and my aunt are going to get some clothes for school. Im sad because the Natalies were supposed to come but we all got in trouble together. So there goes that. I cant wait for school
because its going to be great. Plus i get to see my Natalie again. Its pathetic i miss them already. Its only been like two days. This is going to be a very long week and a half. Im gonna go shower. Bye. <3 to all.
~liz~ |
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| 12:56pm 23/07/2004 |
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The sky looks like patchwork
Stitched just enough so the sky won't fall on top of us
Its alright
The city was covered in gold
And made out of dreams
Everything we wanted was within our reach tonight
And we stood
Tip-toed, Eyes-glued at the scene and the realization that
Everything was so clear, And plain to see
This is where I belong, You can't take me
I was fooling myself all along
I'm never comming back, I'm never comming back
I'm home
And we drove, What felt like forever
Down this street and stopped at the edge of the earth
It looks beautiful from here
This is a place we dreamed of
A place made up in our heads, We thought we'd never see
But here I am
Eyes blinded by painted smiles
We lived a lifetime that night
Everything was so clear, And plain to see
This is where I belong, You can't take me
I was fooling myself all along
I'm never comming back, I'm never comming back
Everything was so clear, And plain to see
This is where I belong you can't take me
I was fooling myself all along
I'm never comming back, I'm never comming back
I'm home
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I love that song lol |
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| 11:33am 23/07/2004 |
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LAst night was very dumb. We should not have gone on that walk.
Thats all im gonna say for now. |
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| 09:52pm 22/07/2004 |
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mood:  anxious music: some song idk
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Thoughts keep spinning in my head.
Lying in this body, my heart is dead.
Hurting & tearing myself appart.
My ryming words have became my art. |
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| 04:20pm 20/07/2004 |
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mood: relieved music: tv
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Omg. North Carolina was so fun. The day we got there we went to see nats family. It was cool because everyone up there has really nice big gardens. So we went walk through the corn and stuff. Then we decided to taste everything. We ate apples, tomatos, and beans. Everything was so good. Then we went and played in this creek that runs behind everyones house on the mountain. After that we went to this blue grass festival. I swear it was soo hick. Lol. No it was fun. Plus there were tons of guys. Yep. So then it was like 10 and we all got tired because we had been traveling all day. So we went back to the hotel. Well me and the Natalies became restless. And well the hotel we were at was really dark so we decided to go lay under the stars. So we troted up this golf course that serves as a ski slope in the winter. Well we got bored. So we decided to roll down it. It was soooooo fun. And cold and wet. It was so awesome. Willams hit her head on a sprinkler head. Then when she got to the bottom she threw up. And was like i want to do it again. It was fun. Then we were soaking wet so we decided to go back to the room and go to sleep. The next morning we woke up at 5 am. Then we went and found a store and got milk and muffins and stuff. Then we went out on the park way. Its so pretty. There were deer and turkeys and stuff it was so cool. Then we got to this overlook thing. I swear it was one of the most beautiful things ive ever seen. So then we went to her aunts house and then went back to the blue grass festival. We left at like 11 we were sleepy and it was raining so blah. Then we went and had lunch and went hiking. Well ill update more later i dont want to type anymore. <3 to all.
~liz~ |
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